Housekeeping

Welcome to my journal! I intend to use this as a recording of my awakening. Maybe it will help someone, hopefully it will help me, and I'm hoping to discover others going through the same.

I suppose now that I've posted up what was in my journal, I should explain some parts of it.

First, the last few updates are the ones since I started recording my experiences. I know I probably should have been recording them from the start, but I didn't really take my awakening seriously before. Now that is impacting me daily, I'm recording and studying myself.

I chose the name Nevernever for the world I see, as I like it. That simple. It probably isn't the real name of that world, but then I don't know the real name of that world. When I find out what its really called, I start calling it that. Nevernever was the name of the fae lands in a book series I read, and I like it.

The black gel barrier in the mist covered field: I'm not sure if anyone has experienced this, but the first time I approached it, I got so freaked out that I hightailed it back to my body. Maybe it was a test? Maybe I'm just a pansy? Who knows, but I am glad I crossed it.

When I come out of meditation, I write up my experience as soon as I can get a pen. No matter how fae I am though, I am blessed/cursed with a human brain. If my posts ever seem disjointed, its probably because I wrote it how I thought it went, then remembered another piece and added it on after.

There is a dismal amount of information on the web about the Vaki. I have found out they are groups of Haltijas (finnish fae). Vaki inhabit all types of nature. There are Vaki of forests, water, mountains, etc etc.At first I thought he meant Vettir, the norse/germanic term for nature spirits. He made it very clear that's not what he meant.

So, to sum up, my currently knowledge is I am a Vaki of something. After months of meditation, that seems a rather small amount of information to have, but it is certainly better than nothing. I know I have wings, and I think I'm going through the "phantom limb" experience. I can feel them more readily after balancing my chakras in the morning, but the sensation comes and goes throughout the day. And if I have been in the Nevernever I can feel them when I return.