I enter Never never, and see my guide in front of me. I ask him where we are going, and he tells me we are to go to my cottage. Cara will meet us there.
The walk seems to go quicker than normal. I wish him a happy Summer Solstice, and he reminds me that in Never never it's the Winter Solstice. I ask him why everything isn't covered in snow then, and he replies that being in the Autumn lands, it always looks like Autumn. The scenery changes as we deem it. We enter the cottage. I tell him now small it seems, and he tells me once again that it furnished my needs, and that is all a house needs to be. He tells me to ask my questions. I pause for a moment, but the first thing out of my mouth is..
..How do I make the two lives fit? I've been struggling with this for a few days. Once I get a thought in my head, it tends to stay in there until I've worked it out. He tells me there is no reason why my two lives can't co-exist. I can be Vaki, and a witch, and a mother and everything else I am. The trick is to work out what those definitions mean to me, and then make them fit.
Cara arrives and we all step outside. My guide bids me have fun and leaves. I look at Cara a little confused, and she explains we are going to a Winter party. In an impish sort of whim, I ask her if I can see a mirror. She gestures behind me. There is a mirror there. I will my clothing to change into a quite gown. I take a moment to look at myself. The black eyes are there, completely black, black long hair, and my wings. I've grown really fond of them now. Black spines, with gossamer webbing in between. Cara steps in front of the mirror and changes into an all black gown. She too has wings, but black feathered wings. She smells like carrion now. I tell her as much, and she tells me I'm close.
As we walk to the party, I asked her if I could know her name yet. She thinks on it, and the word I hear is unpronouncable. She laughs and says thats why she's stuck with Cara for me. The party is in full swing when we arrive.
I am shocked that the first person I see is the man from my past life. I feel drawn to him, and start to walk towards him. Images float by me, of how I would explain to my human husband, whom I love very much, that I have a fae lover, and what that would do to him. I stop, and tell Cara I'm not ready to meet him again. She says he knows that, and is patient.
We walk until we stop in front of a tall man. Very very tall. Silver hair, violet eyes, with a chill that seems to come from within him. I can feel frost as we walk towards him. Cara introduces me to him, and sounds play in my mind. Ja..Jar...Ja..I can't seem to get past this syllable. I ask him if his name is Jarred, as that was the first name to mind. He replies that it will do for now. I'm getting a little annoyed with that sentance, but he just laughs and gestures for me to sit down. I notice Cara has disappeared.
He tells me we used to work together. I cannot for the life of me dredge up one single memory of it. Jarred hands me a drink, and I look in the goblet to see liquid frost. That is the best I can do to describe it. It looks like frost that has been liquified. I drink it, and it doesn't hurt my throat. It tastes like a cool drink of water. I ask him why the frost doesn't hurt me. He replies that it is due to my nature. The term "seasonal fae" enters my mind. I do not know what that means, but leave it for now. I get the feeling Jarred is very similar to a Jack Frost type of being.
He then uses the term Season Fae, though I don't ask what it means. He tells me that he is setting me a task, to find a tree, and define what a Season Fae is. I get the term Ogham in mind, which he smiles at, and Cara reappears. She tells me it is time to head back, as I am not ready for the full party. Trusting her, I leave.
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