How do you live two lives at the same time?
I cherish my time in Nevernever. The energy of the forests feel so alive and vibrant. The forested areas near me are alive as well, but not nearly in the same way. I cherish the time I spend as my real self.
Yet, I also cherish my time with my non-fae family. I adore my kids, I love my husband. I have close connections with my friends. Yet none of them bar one know that I am not completely human.
It is becoming exhausting trying to make the two lives fit.
How would I even begin to tell my husband about my fae soul and the Nevernever? How could I expect him to understand? I know I will have to tell him one day, as we don't do well at keeping secrets from each other.
I have noticed I can sense my wings more and more frequently. This might just be because I am aware of them now, but how long until one of my pagan friends or aware friends notices? What then? Yes, if they can see them they would believe it, obviously, but what if they decide its too much to handle?
As much as I don't want to tell them, I dislike living a double life. I want all sides of me to be accepted. Is that selfish?
Note: since writing this, I have worked up the courage to tell my husband. I needn't have worried. He took it so well, and told me he loved me no matter what or who I was. I am blessed to have him :)
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